[ there's a curious tilt of his head, and he's most definitely teasing at this point. his hand finds hibiki's and threads their fingers together as he leads him across the small distance from the door to the bed. huts are inherently small after all. ]
First of all, there aren't many people who decide to trust someone like me.
[ Hibiki being unexpectedly strict might not have been the only reason why he always had trouble making friends and acquaintances.
Ah, Akira's bed. It's ever so comfortable, too. He's never been so thankful for the huts being so small. ]
And you made me realize something very important.
[ Aware of the fact that Akira might not like this story, Hibiki isn't sure if he should tell him this right here and right now. On the other hand, he doesn't want to hide it either. ]
[ he's realized that he needs the full story. it's been a problem in the past, him letting his emotions and internal compass steer him off the right path. everyone has a story, everyone has reasons. he truly believes that. he just needs to embrace the ideology more often. ]
I'll listen for as long as you need.
[ this time he won't jump to rash conclusions or let his own world views jade him. he's going to embrace this with an open-mind. a lovestruck one, but that's beside the point as he tugs hibiki close, seating himself squarely on the bed. ]
A little while before arriving at this island, I was told that in order to protect my superior I need to kill a certain person. After reaching adulthood, I took another person's life once and this would be the second time. Don't get me wrong, there's no excuse for what I've done in the past, I'm aware of that. But it's the truth.
[ Hibiki takes a deep breath. He's leaving something out of the picture again, but this pause hopefully will let him gather his thoughts. He tries to look Akira in the eyes at all times, even though it is a bit nerve-wracking. ]
I've assassinated many people as a child, however. I can't even tell you how many. Lord Kagura didn't want me to follow that path. He's a slacker, a womanizer and an alcoholic, but...a good person all the same.
[ This boy, never misses a chance to diss Kagura even if just a little. Even at a time like this. ]
I'd like to get back to what I've said in the beginning. To that person I was supposed to kill in order to save him. That person also happens to be someone he deeply cares about. Her name is Noel Vermillion and...I made up my mind to kill her. Back then, I didn't understand Lord Kagura's feelings, but I do now. My duty is to protect and serve him. Killing Noel-san would mean ignoring his orders, ignoring how important she is to him. I cannot...simply ignore that now. I have someone who's important to me too, after all.
[ Hibiki's hand seeks Akira's at this point and gives it a light squeeze before continuing. ]
I'll find another way to save him, I've made my decision.
[ the beginning of the story renews the sense of dread and painful tendrils that had rooted in akira's gut ever since he found out about hibiki's past. but as promised, he listens to the remainder of the story. and he's so glad he does.
akira nods, slow and understanding, piecing it all together. apparently it's capable of undergoing a change of heart without the metaverse. go figure!
hesitantly, akira reaches out to sweep hibiki's bangs back over his ear. ]
I'll help you. I won't leave your side again. We can find another way together.
I wanted to tell you sooner, but...I couldn't bring myself to do it. I've never been this close to anybody, I didn't want to ruin it.
[ And he still did. It was inevitable, however. He couldn't have been hiding this forever. ]
If I had made myself clear from the beginning...I wouldn't have hurt you so much. It was selfish on my part, but I didn't want you to give up on me. I'm truly sorry about that.
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[ there's a curious tilt of his head, and he's most definitely teasing at this point. his hand finds hibiki's and threads their fingers together as he leads him across the small distance from the door to the bed. huts are inherently small after all. ]
Wanna explain what that "else" is?
[ someone please muzzle this boy. ]
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[ Hibiki being unexpectedly strict might not have been the only reason why he always had trouble making friends and acquaintances.
Ah, Akira's bed. It's ever so comfortable, too. He's never been so thankful for the huts being so small. ]
And you made me realize something very important.
[ Aware of the fact that Akira might not like this story, Hibiki isn't sure if he should tell him this right here and right now. On the other hand, he doesn't want to hide it either. ]
Just...listen to the very end, please.
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[ he's realized that he needs the full story. it's been a problem in the past, him letting his emotions and internal compass steer him off the right path. everyone has a story, everyone has reasons. he truly believes that. he just needs to embrace the ideology more often. ]
I'll listen for as long as you need.
[ this time he won't jump to rash conclusions or let his own world views jade him. he's going to embrace this with an open-mind. a lovestruck one, but that's beside the point as he tugs hibiki close, seating himself squarely on the bed. ]
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[ Hibiki takes a deep breath. He's leaving something out of the picture again, but this pause hopefully will let him gather his thoughts. He tries to look Akira in the eyes at all times, even though it is a bit nerve-wracking. ]
I've assassinated many people as a child, however. I can't even tell you how many. Lord Kagura didn't want me to follow that path. He's a slacker, a womanizer and an alcoholic, but...a good person all the same.
[ This boy, never misses a chance to diss Kagura even if just a little. Even at a time like this. ]
I'd like to get back to what I've said in the beginning. To that person I was supposed to kill in order to save him. That person also happens to be someone he deeply cares about. Her name is Noel Vermillion and...I made up my mind to kill her. Back then, I didn't understand Lord Kagura's feelings, but I do now. My duty is to protect and serve him. Killing Noel-san would mean ignoring his orders, ignoring how important she is to him. I cannot...simply ignore that now. I have someone who's important to me too, after all.
[ Hibiki's hand seeks Akira's at this point and gives it a light squeeze before continuing. ]
I'll find another way to save him, I've made my decision.
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akira nods, slow and understanding, piecing it all together. apparently it's capable of undergoing a change of heart without the metaverse. go figure!
hesitantly, akira reaches out to sweep hibiki's bangs back over his ear. ]
I'll help you. I won't leave your side again. We can find another way together.
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[ And he still did. It was inevitable, however. He couldn't have been hiding this forever. ]
If I had made myself clear from the beginning...I wouldn't have hurt you so much. It was selfish on my part, but I didn't want you to give up on me. I'm truly sorry about that.